New Year, Same Me
- Ruthie Dixon
- Jan 22
- 3 min read
Well, it's a new year but the same me. I didn't forget about the blog, but I definitely find it hard to make time to dedicate to it. Hoping to get at least a little better about it this year. I don't have a big medical update which is good. Last mammogram was negative and I'm still taking my medication to prevent recurrence. Next scan is an MRI in June followed by a visit with my oncologist. I do have some other things that will be happening in the coming months, but nothing big at this point. I have a colonoscopy next week, have testing next month for ADHD, and have an appointment with my plastic surgeon in March to see if we are further along in tissue and surgery recovery than I was at my last visit. I will update here if anything comes of any of those things.
Did I Gain the Weight Back?
Some of you may be wondering if I yet again fell off the wagon. Well, yes I did. haha I underestimated how difficult November and December would be for me. Not only is it the holidays which aren't great for me, but I had my wedding anniversary, Ryan's birthday, and Uncle Howards birthday. None of those are happy days. I also went back home with Christopher and you know I will never not eat constantly when I go back home! (Check out Angelo's for the best cheesesteak in existence. Get it with Cooper cheese) I made it through the last 2 months of the year though and I only got derailed by about 5 pounds. I restarted a lot of things in the new year and trying to gain consistency. As of today, we are at 56 pounds down and I'm back on the wagon for now. I am doing a program at the gym that has me independently doing a workout onsite once a week, but also a home workout using the equipment I have. On the others days I play pickleball or dance. I'm taking all my medications regularly and really focusing on that and the workouts, so that I form the habits again.
New Song
As you know, if you read the previous post, I started a hobby a few months ago making songs with an app. Something about just hearing words you put down into some music makes it better for me. Music is my love language. Some of you mentioned liking the ones I put on my last post, so here is a new one you can check out.
“Never Walk Alone”
I made this when I was trying to talk myself into getting my shit together and planning for the new year and how I will bounce back. It's a song about those I lost (my dad, Uncle Jerry, Uncle Howard, and Ryan especially) and about not staying down and out in grief and letting it take over your life. Uncle Howard used to play the piano and would play the song "You'll Never Walk Alone". That is the reference to know when you listen and it says "I can hear you play You'll Never Walk Alone". I have a link so you can see him actually playing it as well.
Uncle Howard playing "You'll Never Walk Alone"
Listen to “Never Walk Alone”
Other News
There hasn't been a whole lot going on in my world, but the one thing some of you don't know is that I changed job roles a couple months ago. I am now working in the egg donation world. I help Intended Parents find their egg donor and coordinate their journey. I was worried in the beginning about how I might do in this role. I knew surrogacy inside and out, and this felt like an entirely new world. It's definitely been a learning process, but I'm really enjoying it as of now. It's a different part of the journey I get to help in, but I'm still helping to build families and that fulfills my soul. I'm excited to see where this takes me. For now, I've just been trusting the confidence others have in me until I hold that same confidence in myself (or at least to the degree they do).
I guess that's all for today. Thanks as always for the love and support you all have sent my way and continue to send my way. You all make the difficult days so much more bearable. Good luck in all of your 2026 goals!